Everyday is a siege to my heart. People bombard me with cruel words and scorn. And all I can do is ignore them because I was raised better. What’s even worse is that I have to forgive them because I follow Jesus. I have to forgive because I’m the one who understands the situation. But they follow Jesus, too. Why can’t they live out what they read on the bible? Why does it always have to be me?
Why can’t I fight back? Why do I get so much judgement for the few times I defend myself? What about those who follow Jesus but still hurt others? What’s going to happen to them?
Isn’t life convenient for bullies? They hurt you and then you have to forgive them. You do all the heavy stuff. Because they don’t know what they’re doing and unfortunately, you do.
At the end of the day, when they say sorry, you have no choice but to forgive because that’s how things go. If you don’t forgive karma will get back at you. Once he has your forgiveness the oppressor is off the hook.
But what about me? What about my wounded heart?